tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41192141207162024202024-03-08T05:14:30.899-08:00Between My LipsI am a writer that speaks from my heart. A lot of my work is controversy. I say what's on my mind knowing that there will be people that will agree and disagree. I try to look at things from different points of views, but ultimately there will be someone out there that shares a different view than me. The freedom of speech is a beautiful thing. I can say what I want, to who I want, when I want, where I want, for whatever reason I want to do it. And there is nothing that anyone can do about it.Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.comBlogger61125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-71916957798260004472009-02-11T13:16:00.000-08:002009-02-11T13:17:33.055-08:00New Love<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">This being in love thing is something I'm not used to.<br />I haven't worked out all the kinks yet because our relationship is new.<br />At times I get frustrated, not really sure of what it is that I should do.<br />I'm aware that you are an addition to my life, and already my heart belongs to you.<br /><br />So when I make you angry or you are confused as to why I behave in the way I do.<br />Communicate to me your concerns, so we can work through anything that we need to.<br />For you are special to be in more ways than I can express.<br />We shared our friendship first, so I have no secrets to confess.<br /><br />At times I question why you would even want me to be a part of your existence.<br />We are different in so many ways, so I never thought anything other than a friendship would make sense.<br />Now I realize that a relationship is something that should never be predicted.<br />I think about our past, I didn't see this coming. I wonder if there was a sign and I missed it?<br /><br />I'm happy. The smile that I show you is identical to the one that's displayed on my face every time I hear your voice.<br />Throughout my entire day, I'm unable to get you out of my head, and even if I could I wouldn't make that choice.<br />Sometimes I make you stay on the phone, content with just hearing you breathe.<br />Anticipating you calling me baby, and end of conversation you telling me that you love me.<br /><br />Although I tell you I miss you at least three to four times a day, in my heart I don't feel that I'm telling you enough.<br />And when we're having a confrontation the reason why I try to give you space is because I don't want you to leave me because things get rough.<br /><br />It's kind of corny and I know you're not one of those romantic love heroes that I read about.<br />But when I read those love books, and the damsel in distress talks about how she feels about her prince charming, I finally know what she's talking about.<br /><br />The love I feel for you pumps through my entire body and the shine I've worn for the last couple of months I wear because of you.<br />I'm hoping that what we share is something special. Because truly I know I'm falling in love with you.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-64181136303946704772008-10-16T12:13:00.000-07:002008-10-16T12:14:17.286-07:00Obama<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffff33;">Eyes are wide with amazement, a black man walks through the door dressed in suit and tie<br />Black women cry, white man nod in approval, the acknowledgement of 11% ahead, some sigh<br />The vote, the importance of practicing this right granted after segregation<br />The media covers the importance of taking part in choosing who will run our nation<br /><br />Democrats vote for the their new trophy, the new symbol for change, the right of passage, finally equal opportunity exists<br />But how long will he survive, is the United States of America really ready for a non Caucasian president?<br />The risk, assassination to a completely different level, haters lurk the streets and the airways<br />After 9-11, all scared of Saddam Hussein, worried about bombs on planes, will the next terrorist attack happen today?<br /><br />November 4th, submit my ballot, aware of new voting laws, no Obama paraphernalia at the polls, my vote does count<br />And as bad as I want to say that I want my president to be Mr. Barack, my prayers reach further to say please sir watch out<br />The polls, identical to election of 2004 when so many African American votes thrown out the door<br />Baby Bush, a conspiracy, no dirt, It's all in who you know, the republican campaign fight for war<br /><br />Is it worth it? Run a nation, alert to all surroundings constantly looking behind your back<br />Held a dream all your life, that you were going to be the first US black president, so close to becoming fact<br />New hero for all minorities that feel like they don't belong, the impossible made possible, a new reality<br />A new standard, set for citizens of America, a black man running this country finally<br /></span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-70881554864688143842008-10-15T12:54:00.001-07:002008-10-15T12:54:56.622-07:00Thinking<span style="color:#ff0000;">Couped up in the corner, feeling revengeful in the containment of my own bars<br />Choosing to stay alone, in the absence of my surroundings, shielding my audience from all the scars<br />In reality the demonstration of my day to day agenda may be camuflaged from my dreams that do exist<br />Without loosing hope I indulage myself in what many consider personal nonsence<br /><br />To make a mockery of my current situation adds value to my existance<br />Minimizing illusions of unrelated circumstances only brings truth to what is realistic<br />Maturity arrises, self assurance reaches a new level as time pasts and new centuries arrive<br />With no responsibility of inner circle souls, I seek no one but shield thy own cries<br /><br />Few will ever understand why I devour challenges thrown my way<br />Leaning on no one, standing independent, solo and sturdy every day<br />To magnify little obstacles as a life changing metemorphsis makes an ordinary event an unimaginable experience<br />Daydreaming of the unheard and unnoticed, collaborating by myself<br />to make the blind see a physical appearence<br /><br />Anything is possible and day to day I find new evidence for the knowledge that I do withhold<br />Guilty of encapsulation of mental stimulation that I choose to forever remain unknown<br />Few seek or rather appreciate the brilliance of one's mind<br />My thoughts, my mental translation a detective will never find</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-20142538376590696902008-10-14T10:00:00.001-07:002008-10-14T10:01:46.706-07:00Surprise<span style="font-size:85%;">Probaly the best birthday present I've received in a long time<br />Introduced to my sister I never knew I had, but now after 23 years she's all mine<br />My father a baby factory specializing in the production of girls<br />Yet the bastard managed to escape from all of our worlds<br /><br />So now we're older and plenty of time has gone by<br />No need to dwell on the past, we will make up for lost time<br />The relationship we share now never existed before<br />I will work hard to maintain this friendship because I want so much more<br /><br />I want us to be close, I believe she is the best friend I never met.<br />Now that she's in my life she is a fixture I won't ever forget<br />I'm grateful to get to know her, and am excited about what the future will bring<br />I look forward to meeting her, chilling, hanging out and everything<br /><br />We have the same father, different mothers yet we still are a lot alike in a lot of ways<br />Which is crazy, five states away yet so many similarities<br />A quarter pounder, chinky eyes, wanting to succeed.<br />My sister finding me makes me feel so much more complete.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-22392306752236331072008-09-18T13:48:00.000-07:002008-09-18T13:49:01.376-07:00Mommy<span style="font-size:85%;color:#cc33cc;">Though time goes by and it may seem that I do not appreciate everything that you do.<br />Please realize that this is not the case, most of the time the only person I can depend on is you.<br />So yes my tattoos may make you wonder, what kind of daughter did you raise?<br />And yes the 12 years of private school will benefit my future days.<br /><br />And in the end I have you to thank, for making me who I am today.<br />While you are disappointed in my actions, all I can do is pray.<br />That eventually one day you will be able to understand that I can only live to be me.<br />I have to be independent and experience my life even though you don't agree.<br /><br />I listen to everything you tell me, though I may not practice everything that you preach.<br />Doesn't mean stop telling me what I don't want to hear, I need you here to teach.<br />I know I'm hard headed, I know I'm ungrateful, I know I only think of myself.<br />I also know how to ignore what you're saying and pretend you're talking to somebody else.<br /><br />Now that I'm older, even as an adult I'm still sensitive to your view.<br />But you also taught me to be strong, so the strength I have, I got it from you.<br />Being unique and independent, is also something else you taught me to be.<br />So even at times when I piss you off, I know one day you'll be proud of me.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-32341478806784698772008-09-16T13:10:00.000-07:002008-09-16T13:11:22.120-07:00Pray<span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color:#99ff99;">'I ain't no girl', my little soldier feels that he got to prove himself.<br />At only three years old my son is already a mess.<br />I love my baby boy from the bottom of my heart.<br />As he gets older more often than ever I got to tear his little ass apart.<br /><br />Thinking he grown, he done stepped to me at least twice.<br />Being a black woman, of course he paid the price.<br />Sometimes he forgets how far it is that he can go.<br />I remind him with the quickness, yes you already know.<br /><br />At a tender age of three my son surprises me everyday.<br />My saddest moment is when my son has to go away.<br />The separation for two weeks is a break but a misery in one.<br />Because it just doesn't feel normal when I don't have my son.<br /><br />When I look at him I can only smile, that's my little man.<br />I will forever be his hero, and together we will stand.<br />With God in our lives, there will always be a way.<br />Which is why I teach my son, to pray each and every day.</span><br /> </span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-12626382842381314682008-09-16T13:05:00.000-07:002008-09-16T13:06:12.172-07:00Settle<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffff99;">This single mom shit, working my ass off every single day.<br />Has been so exhausting and I need your help in a physical way.<br />I talk a lot about not needing you, and in fact you can be replaced.<br />But in reality, this is your son, so indeed this is your space.<br /><br />I work hard, to do what I can, to provide your son with the best.<br />What I would do to go back in time, I wouldn't be alone handling this mess.<br />I'm not saying that I wouldn't have given birth to the most precious gift to me.<br />What I'm saying is that we would be together, currently I would be on your team.<br /><br />To think that you've moved on, and now taking care of a family not of your own.<br />It's hard for me to understand, so I know its even harder for a three year old.<br />I've made the bed I lay in each and every night.<br />That's why I don't bitch or complain, you already know that this shit aint right.<br /><br />And when time goes by, and he gets older, my son will know who loves him the best.<br />Not to say that you don't love him, but as a child you settled for less.<br />When you were with me, you were my man that took care of his responsibilities.<br />Now you let a woman take care of your lazy ass, its only the beginning of your miseries.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-25470010949274584842008-09-16T12:09:00.000-07:002008-09-16T12:11:00.807-07:00Reverse<span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color:#ffcc99;">So you miss me and you are ready to do what it takes to get me back.<br />You are ready to act right, tired of the below the waist attacks.<br />You can't live life knowing that I no longer want to be your friend.<br />And you feel kind of lousy knowing that you are the reason for our end.<br /><br />So time has gone by though I'm not sure if you have learned your lesson.<br />In fact I'm not sure if your presence is my curse or my blessing.<br />I think hard with my brain, scared my heart will lead me in the wrong direction.<br />Learning to be patient waiting for happiness, not settling for temporary satisfaction.<br /><br />Although so badly I want to be held again in your arms each and every night.<br />I have to be strong knowing that pretty soon we'll only fuss and fight.<br />Everything always seems so good at the beginning but in reality we will never go back to what we used to be.<br />Which is why I have to continue to run, I can't let the infatuation grab a hold of me.<br /><br />You are very important to me. And though you don't believe me, my love will always remain.<br />I think about you constantly, and I only fall back because I'm driving myself insane.<br />You spoiled me with the possibility and a model of who it is that you can really be.<br />And when I see that person again, that's when I'll know you are ready for me.</span></span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-39037059687871686422008-09-12T12:54:00.001-07:002008-09-12T12:54:44.862-07:00Ahh<span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color:#66ffff;">No longer needing a roadmap you know exactly where to go<br />I love it when you move fast, but I don't know if I love it better when you go slow.<br />Squeezing my thighs I open up my flood gates.<br />You go deeper in my tunnel when my body shakes.<br /><br />Caressing your head, devouring your face.<br />Dipping and diving until you find my special place.<br />You've arrived to the place we met before.<br />You got to open wide, I'm about to pour.<br /><br />I love to feel your tongue all over my body.<br />With my eyes tight I imagine you inside me.<br />Take me to heaven, unlock my gates.<br />I offer to you my vaginal buffet come on and taste.<br /><br />It's only natural to feel this high.<br />Keep going no matter how loud I cry.<br />This pain is pleasure, I'll keep it tight.<br />If feels so good and it feels so right.<br /></span> </span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-6112858356792702082008-09-12T08:23:00.001-07:002008-09-12T08:23:45.610-07:00Angry<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">Even though I know that I should have completely shut you out of my life.<br />There's a part of me that wants your friendship and for things to be allright.<br />It hurts inside to know that you are not the person that I grew to love.<br />But I know there's a reason you're in my life understood by the man above.<br /><br />I get angry thinking about the perception of you in my fantasy that never came true.<br />I get even angrier thinking that my everything at one time turned out to be you.<br />But over time I learn to ignore and take steps farther away.<br />And when my heart has healed, I'll confront you once again someday.<br /><br />For now let our bygones be bygones, and let this space between us remain.<br />There's no need to contact me. You've won. I'm done playing your childish games.<br />And over time when you think about me, and want to express the love that you still hold.<br />Keep it to yourself and meditate about who I used to be, and she is who you should have told.<br /><br />Now that you've used every drip of my patience, and have taken advange of everything I chose to give.<br />I've moved on with my life, seperated what I want; from what I need, and have begun again to live.<br />You are an experience that has forced me to recognize the real from the untrue.<br />I'm no longer angry, because atleast I've become stronger all because of you.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-72330969037027088612008-09-04T13:28:00.000-07:002008-09-04T13:29:43.938-07:00Journey<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff9900;">Sometimes I question why God would let certain things happen to me.<br />I don't understand I pray every night for the conclusion of my struggle down on my knees.<br />I'm only one person, I have no help, he watches me day to day.<br />I've learned my lessons, I've created new goals, Please God deliver me I pray.<br /><br />When times get tough I remember that you have control over everything that I do.<br />I also know that until I put all my doubts in your hands I'm not completely trusting you.<br />For you will not give me anything I can't handle, I truly do believe.<br />But why do things get tougher, why do I have to struggle even when I know you love me?<br /><br />I've made mistakes day to day, the mistakes that you have already forgiven me for.<br />I tell you I'm sorry I apologize for my actions, yet you continue to put me through so much more.<br />If only I could be rescued, Where in the world is my guardian angel hiding?<br />I need her beside me, I need her protection. I'm telling the truth, I'm not lying.<br /><br />I don't think I've done something that is so bad I must suffer for my actions.<br />All I can do is fall back, hand you all my burdens so that I can relax.<br />Let you carry them heavy on your back, not trying to figure out why you do what you do.<br />In the back of mind I'm aware that there is a reason why I'm walking in these shoes.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-42804591570385077802008-08-27T12:37:00.001-07:002008-08-27T12:37:50.154-07:00Twa<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffffff;">I'm not shy but I really don't want to share.<br />I don't find any excitement in a chick pulling my hair.<br />I look forward to being hit by behind by a manly thrusting.<br />Not curious to differentiate between a male or female tonguing.<br /><br />I myself feel like I'm so much of a fulfillment I don't need anyone to go behind me to finish my work.<br />When I put it on my man, I conquer what's mine, he has no reason to wander under any new woman's skirt.<br />When he says my name he says it loud and clear, pronouncing each and every syllable down to the s.<br />I know I do a good job because when I'm done, he falls a sleep in my wetness.<br /><br />And the next morning when I should be in the kitchen cooking eggs and bacon.<br />My man is in the kitchen thinking of the 3 meals he will prepare to thank me.<br />I get a gold star for effort and a gold metal for expertise.<br />How does it feel to wake up every morning by a man down on his knees?<br /><br />I could never imagine a woman taking his place.<br />I could never imagine waking up to a woman's face.<br />I like a manly man with manly arms, holding me all night in a manly way.<br />I will never share a man with any woman, except maybe one time, before my wedding day.<br /></span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-66472720779013065032008-08-27T11:16:00.001-07:002008-08-27T11:16:46.583-07:00Relax<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff6600;">When you slide it in my temperature hits at least 100 degrees.<br />Is it because I still love or have I been anticipating this for too long in my dreams?<br />Your chocolate swirl deep in my peppermint patty.<br />The thick sweet icing oozing out of my laughy-taffy.<br /><br />Damn, I've been waiting, it's been so long but it feels so fucking good.<br />My legs are spread, my walls are open stretching to swallow your wood.<br />Home sweet home, as always I put that smile on Daddy's face.<br />Like habit my tongue no longer needs directions to find your special place.<br /><br />Bodies twined into one, my legs made into pretzels and semi-circles.<br />Trying new positions, makes me horny, also wearing lingerie especially purple.<br />Talking dirty also makes me freaky, I know I'm a nymph at heart.<br />That's why I feel like I'm going through withdrawal when I keep your dick and my pussy apart.<br /><br />No I'm no longer your bust it baby, this is completely on my terms.<br />In fact you can shut the fuck up while we fucking,<br />I know longer want to hear your words.<br />You telling me you still love me, why even waste your fucking time.<br />Close your eyes and squeeze me, let the milky-ness below my waste relax your mind.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-31756950752547592212008-08-27T10:45:00.001-07:002008-08-27T10:45:46.264-07:00Truth<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffcccc;">You are the new first lady of his kingdom, tat of his name displayed on your back.<br />You are one of many with the identical permanent label above your crack.<br />So I'm guessing you did this to prove to him that you want to be the leading lady of his life.<br />In some stupid twisted way you display, he should choose you to be his wife.<br /><br />Well what you tell me is true, I am the woman of his past.<br />But everyone knows, every baby daddy when it comes to his baby mama, thinks he can get a piece of ass.<br />So when you spend so much time trying to figure out what's going on, and whether love still exists.<br />Know that every time you piss him off, I am she he will always miss.<br /><br />Realize that I'm not with him by choice, and if I wanted him he would be mine.<br />Use your brain ma, you yourself knows he constantly lies.<br />I remember when I was in your shoes, when I used to create excuses for the things that he do.<br />How I tried to convince myself to follow my heart, and ignore my brain, I know how it feels to be you.<br /><br />I will always be the mother of his first and only child, so always remember that.<br />To be real, I'm not going anywhere, I'm a permanent fixture for a matter of fact.<br />Physically he is in my memory, but the emotions have been gone for a long time.<br />You can try to create as much drama as you can,<br />but MY baby daddy is all mine.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-34960002090216151812008-08-25T09:06:00.000-07:002008-08-25T09:07:09.941-07:00O<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffccff;">My legs high, a 90 degree angle<br />With my Back arched, I can grab my ankles<br />The pounding of your balls on the crack of my ass<br />While our body's smash, I can hear the splash<br /><br />Slippery and tight, I work hard in overtime<br />Holding my lips tight, I love this grind<br />Fast and slow keeping our bodies in rotation<br />Tongue in ear, Concentration<br /><br />Lay back flat, I'll slide on top<br />Lick you down to your tootsie roll pop<br />Turnover slowly, crack in face<br />Hold me tight while my body shake<br /><br />Orgasms ripple through my body<br />My clit tender, I kiss you softly<br />Loving the attention you harden for more<br />Lick my bell, I'll open the door</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-85855089585344065172008-08-24T12:43:00.000-07:002008-08-24T12:44:04.048-07:00Nasty Nice<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff6666;">Love is supposed to be so beautiful yet in the end I end up in pain<br />My heart knows why I'm in love but my brain is done playing games<br />I can put the words on paper exactly what goes through my head<br />All I know is that love really hurts, count the tears I've already shed<br /><br />So the decision I make to move on is concrete, but the notion of being strong lingers<br />All I can think about is how good it felt to be touched by his big masculine fingers<br />The thin line between love and hate, the thin desire to still want him around<br />Even though I know when I take him serious, I'm standing on shaky grounds<br /><br />To leave him alone, with no turning back its easier said than done<br />I already know just calling his phone gives him the satisfaction that he won<br />To give that idiot any form of condolences is the last thing that I want to do<br />All the pain that he's caused, all the bullshit he's put me through<br /><br />I can't elaborate on what the future holds, but my wall is stacked to the rim<br />These bricks are securely placed preventing me from committing new sins<br />I myself am aware that although I want to physically harm him, karma will come his way<br />And though I want to hurt him tomorrow, the revenge may come today</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-53195115728996196832008-08-20T13:44:00.000-07:002008-08-20T13:45:22.944-07:00Ass<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffccff;">Call me stingy but I'm reserving my pussy moving forward.<br />I know it won't be easy, I'll be putting myself through torture.<br />I love sex to death, but no longer will I base a friendship on how many times you make me cum.<br />Nor will I spend so much time thinking about the next time you gone give me some.<br /><br />If I'm woman enough to solo take care of the lives of me and my son.<br />Than I should be strong enough of a woman to make it through the spell of a dry run.<br />Choosing to eliminate the burden of a hard dick.<br />Only now will I enjoy the satisfaction of a good lick.<br /><br />It's hard to decipher a man's mentality from the actions that are shown.<br />But pussy is on a man's mind whether he's 22 or 40 years old.<br />I'm just so damn tired of hearing the same old bullshit.<br />We both adults be real is it that you just want to hit.<br /><br />Why play games? Be honest. Sex is only an action verb, even though it sounds so sweet.<br />But moving forward I'll hide my sweet tooth, I'm now allergic to that treat.<br />No more booty calls. I will enjoy a full night of rest.<br />So if all you want is some ass, you can move on and settle for less.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-42083863014208431142008-08-18T14:00:00.000-07:002008-08-18T14:01:09.505-07:00Swap<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff9900;">"Mommy I already did one more week?" My baby is ready to come home.<br />It's hard for him to understand because he's only 3 years old.<br />Mommy and Daddy aren't together, so instead of one house you have two.<br />But from the voice of my child I hear "Mommy I want to be with you."<br /><br />In takes everything in me not to drop everything I'm doing, drive all the way to Jersey to pick up my baby.<br />I know I can't do that, because if I do, shit between me and the baby daddy will definitely get crazy.<br />Those days are over, I try to keep it chill even though I can't go a whole week with out wanting to slap his ass for real.<br />So until the time is right, I call continuously to make sure he's alright, even in his voice I can tell how he feels.<br /><br />I tell him Mommy misses you I love you so much. He tells me that he misses me too.<br />It hurts so much in the pit of my gut for him to say Mommy I want to be with you.<br />It's unfair at age 3 he has to be passed back and forth between NJ and V-A.<br />Everyone tells me that he'll adjust soon, but I don't think he'll ever see that day.<br /><br />Eventually he'll be older and to him I know through his eyes this is unfair.<br />I wish that he didn't have to experience the separation, but in reality it'll always be there.<br />So all I can do is wait till my week finally arrives.<br />Where I can hold my baby again and no longer listen to his cries.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-25956081650952232492008-08-18T13:25:00.000-07:002008-08-18T13:26:10.880-07:00Eventually<span style="font-size:85%;color:#99ffff;">Three and a half years ago I gave birth to the one precious being that means the world to me.<br />Everything I do, everything I work hard for, its for him, and I know one day he'll see.<br />When things get hard I remind myself to work even harder and in the end I'll appreciate what I've worked so hard for.<br />But still even with this thought it mind, its still hurts to work hard and only slowly do I see a little bit more.<br /><br />So I fall back, exhale and think about everything that I need to do.<br />Think about the reasons that I make the decisions that I do, and why in my head I have so much to prove.<br />Although the livelihood of my little one has been the single priority of my life since he's been born<br />And although I try so hard I know deep down in my heart I'm ungrateful, because I strive for so much more.<br /><br />I mean I'm grateful that he's here and he's made the mark that he has on my heart.<br />But there are so many nights I cry feeling like my brain has been torn apart.<br />Thinking about paying my bills, taking care of my seed solo, $600 a month for private school care.<br />While I'm out here taking care of myself, got a real job not depending on anyone nor the government, but because I'm not a college graduate you stare.<br /><br />She messed up her life, made a big mistake she had so much to look forward to.<br />I've heard this in my ears for the last 3 in a half years and I realized that I still have so much to do.<br />Yeah it might be harder, but my son has made me even stronger, so every doubt that I've ever had in my mind.<br />Goes away immediately because I know regardless of what I've been told repeatedly, everything that I said I was going to do will eventually be done in time.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-21943535371676778822008-08-12T13:52:00.000-07:002008-08-12T13:53:19.406-07:00Drip<span style="color:#ff99ff;">My tears keep falling...my heart hurts, I can't even feel my head<br />We had a conversation about our deaths, but this early is not what you said<br />In a casket, coogi'd down complete with a fitted and white tee<br />My nigga you supposed to be here but you already left me<br />We had plans for the future all the shit you planned to do<br />How am I supposed to continue to do all that shit without you<br />And yo I told you stop drinking that shit wasn't good for your body<br />But being so damn stubborn you wouldn't listen to anybody<br />We all got to die someway is what you said to me<br />But I never thought it would be you dying all of suddenly<br />Well thank you so much for being a part of my life the time that you were here<br />And even though you've passed away in my heart I will keep you near<br />The meanest nigga I've ever known, the most go hard nigga I ever knew<br />I ain't ever tell you but you was my friend, my nigga, and I really do love you<br />And if and when you needed me I would have held you down in everyway<br />And that's why I've been hurting all fucking day</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-89243896831008652612008-08-12T13:35:00.000-07:002008-08-12T13:36:20.991-07:00R.I.P D00g<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ffff66;">I always said you were the meanest man that I ever met today<br />What I would do to turn back the hands of time for you to pick up the phone this day<br />I know you were mad and I'm sorry for everything that I did<br />Didn't return your call that day and now your life as come to an end<br /><br />All I can think about is that you are no longer on this Earth<br />27 years old, young couldn't even experience your first-born's birth<br />Wake up early just to talk, my keep me up voice on my way home<br />But now I no longer have you and right now I feel so alone<br /><br />I can't believe you're gone and at this moment I don't know want to do<br />Didn't even get the opportunity to express my love to you<br />So physically you not here, but in my heart you will be forever<br />And I know you can still be my ear to talk to me about whatever<br /><br />I take so much for granted and I realize this at this very moment<br />I've learned my lesson believe me starting now I will show it<br />Everything happens for a reason and right now even though I feel like shit<br />I know you are ok in heaven but I feel like an ungrateful bitch</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-59638685833446128372008-08-04T14:04:00.001-07:002008-08-04T14:04:52.110-07:00Hoe<span style="font-size:85%;color:#3333ff;">A damn shame a grown ass man yet u truly aint shit<br />And now all your hoes know that you was only in it to hit<br />So now the hard part is over and now its your turn to pay<br />Eventually you will realize what I did, you might not understand today<br /><br />But I'm not over how disgusting and triffling you turned out to be<br />How can you have sex with your cousin, yo thats really nasty<br />I'm parading you around like you the shit but in reality you were only a dog<br />And you in my face honestly feeling like you didn't do anything wrong<br /><br />Are you sick? Do you have an illness tell me whats the case.<br />How do you look me in my eyes and lie to face?<br />It's crazy but you do it..and you did it for months.<br />I don't believe you did it only because I messed up.<br /><br />A hicky does not compare to what it is that you did.<br />But believe me when all of this is over I am going to win.<br />Your friends are right you are messing with a different type of breed.<br />Now you will see the viscious bitch that I can be.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-84029398183611362932008-08-04T13:54:00.000-07:002008-08-04T13:55:26.283-07:00Ache<span style="font-size:85%;color:#ff6666;">She's not your girl but that's your boo.<br />You changed your number and gave it to your crew.<br />I'm busting my ass trying to figure out what's going on.<br />Not knowing if you're locked up, my heart's already torn.<br /><br />I really shouldn't care if you was serving some time.<br />But when I say that aloud, I know I'm lying.<br />Like I've told you we've had a bumpy ride.<br />I can remember several nights I went to bed and cried.<br /><br />I thought you were kind of crazy because of the things you used to do.<br />Not knowing that men do things when they are in love with you.<br />I know you care about me and you check on me through other people.<br />What you do not know is the love I had for you has gotten even deeper.<br /><br />I can't express to you how deeply I truly feel.<br />In some ways I want to work it out but I already know the deal.<br />To tell you that you will never have me all to yourself was true.<br />But its only because of the constant heartache that I still have for you.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-4921848110967298302008-08-04T13:46:00.000-07:002008-08-04T13:47:08.064-07:00Bx<span style="font-size:85%;color:#009900;">It's crazy because it's been a minute since I'd last seen your face<br />But even now I can remember everything even your scent and the way you taste<br />I hate to say it but over time I realize what you said was true<br />That even after our relationship there is new bullshit I must go through<br /><br />In all honesty I can't even describe how much misery and pain you brought into my life<br />But even after all you've done I still think how things would have been as your wife<br />We talked about it a lot and I wanted so badly to officially be yours<br />But it was so hard for me to except that you had a 4 year old, 3 and 2 year old and a baby 2 months old<br /><br />You lied to me at the beginning and I still stuck by you everyday<br />And even though I knew It was crazy I loved you in every type of way<br />The love we share I know is one of a kind<br />You have admitted to be my soul mate, and its stuck in my mind<br /><br />In reality we will probaly never be together ever again<br />But I feel good knowing that the love you have for me will never end<br />You told me that you get week in my presence and I feel the same exact way<br />Which is why since I've seen you I've thought about you every fucking day.</span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4119214120716202420.post-13497032406754446602008-06-19T13:01:00.000-07:002008-06-19T13:02:32.313-07:00Ant<span style="font-size:85%;"><span style="color:#ffffff;">Sitting on the couch, chilling watching a little TV<br />Played a little scrabble, had to be at work by 3<br />Tight tummy full sealed with some tree<br />Never gave a second thought or glance in reference to me<br /><br />Months go by randomly I hit this man up<br />For no particular reason just to say what's up<br />Immediately conversation starts flowing<br />And even though I can't see him I can tell by his voice that's he's glowing<br /><br />Incredible conversation sparks interest and curiosity<br />Numerous similarities, both majoring in psychology<br />Identical zodiac, what's the chances of that?<br />Him messing with a younger woman, about as slim as that<br /><br />Up till midnight talking on the phone<br />Young in age, but in every shape and form I'm grown<br />A competitive individual that seeks happiness<br />A full package with intention to never settle for less<br /><br />A good head on my shoulders though I never follow the rules<br />I seek to make myself better taking advantage of all my tools<br />Wanting now to get to know your entire story<br />Hoping I will be introduced to excellence in every category</span><br /></span>Princesshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17917530799751650305noreply@blogger.com0