AshCakes

I'm your babymom the mother of your babygirl
Established a sturdy position in the center of your world
Doing what I can to play the role you want me to play
But lately I'm confused b/c that role changes day to day

How am I supposed to know what exactly it is you want me to do
If when I tell you what it is you maintain your attitude
Shit for me is hard, and I know at times for you its bad
But the fact that you take things out on me makes me very mad

What am I to do to get you to understand?
Not only are you my friend but I love you as my man
The first time in forever I'm questioning our relationship
And in all actuality I'm questioning my commitment

Finding an out, content with conversation
Clicking with another dude has captured me with amazement
I love you in everyway as I have always done before
But in my heart I know that I deserve so much more

Fight

Lonely at times, searching for a way out
Time to stay strong, no time to pout
But than so mad want to stand up and shout
Knowing that there'll never be a way out
Mind as well roll up my sleeves
Get down dirty, down on my knees
No need to worry I'm prepared to fight
The fight is necessary when there's no way out
My struggle is my victory I fight for a win
Fighting can be necessary if you fight till the end
No way out no where to go
Punches are sturdy, they move real slow
Side to side one at a time
The type of fight that's not a crime

Caged

Even when there are so many things
In my mind, your visual rings
Like an alarm going off in my head
When I'm awake and lay in bed
I can only think of you and me
And how in the future things will be
Wanting so bad for you to hold me each night
Tuck me in safe make sure everything's alright
I know taking things slow each and every day
Will assure a solid foundation and that's okay
It's hard though, the anticipation is killing me
Wanting you so badly is crazy overwhelming
When things become great this will all make sense
A perfect house with a white picket fence
Happiness is what I want so bad
Tired of being hurt and tired of being sad

Afraid

With a gun to my head I been told to strip
Hide my 3 week baby in a shoe box looking directly at his clip
I gave him his passy hoping that he would sleep right through this
Praying to God that if this dude pulled the trigger he would miss

I'm not ready to go from this world, I just gave birth to my son
But if you need to take a life, take mine, because his has just begun
I pushed my son further up under the bed
Praying to God that this man would not shoot me in my head

I don't know where the drugs are so there's nothing for me to offer in return
For both my life and the life of my son, this is something we don't deserve
But again like I said before let me know what I can do to make this all go away
So here are my clothes, I'm naked and there's nothing for me to say

But please spare my life, And my son is to young to know
I know that you are twisted, but my son, he's 3 weeks old
The man took my clothes and ran from the house as fast as could be
I lifted my son from underneath the bed and held him as tight as I could to me

Trouble Bubble

My head is congested I can't fucking breath
Right now I need a blunt, please pass me the trees
Or maybe I need a shot to make this all go away
Knowing once I'm sober I'll still have to deal with this today

Getting up off my butt to take care of business
Going to work early another ass to kiss
Try to be nice to baby daddy, maybe soon he'll send some dough
Knowing that really he probably won't, so all this stress is going to grow

I let him get to me just like I do my moms
Lately the only relief I have is rapping to instrumental songs
My son wants this and that and as his Mommy I got to get it
Never admit I'm on my last dollar, because truly I already spent it

But there is always someone there for you, no one will let me struggle
As if life was so sweet, where is my glass bubble?
Look into my walls squint hard and you still will never see
Or ever relate to all these things that keep stressing me

Maybe

I respect the fact that you feeling me and I do think about us in a lot of ways
But than at the same time I think about all the stuff I been through in all my past days
To be honest and to be real I don't know what our future holds
It would be nice to think that together we can grow

It might not seem like I'm putting forth an effort as much as an effort as you
The only reason is because here in Va I have a lot I"m going through
You don't live here so it's hard for you to relate to the things that I'm referring to
And to be honest I don't really communicate when I know there's nothing you can do

So to answer your question referencing what exactly we can become
I can't answer at this moment because our friendship has just begun
In the past I've rushed a lot of things and I want to be careful and move slow
I do want to get to know you and I want to learn everything there is to know

You're older than me so I know to you this might not be exactly want you want
But its the only direction I choose to head in and this is me being blunt
But by no means am I saying that with you I just want to be your friend
But I would rather for us to build a friendship first before working towards my dreams

Urge

I know I'm feeling you on a different level because I'm letting you fuck with my head
I don't even understand what I'm doing, because I know what I'm doing and that I can't stand
It would be different if it came with a surprise but this time this is not the case
I realize that you are worthless and for real you lied to my face

So now I'm thinking about all the questions that lately I've had floating in my mind
And maybe I've been too blind which is why god sent me this sign
Dummy wake up smell the coffee this dude is a fake
Don't waste your time with is ass if you do it'll be a big mistake

So now I feel stupid not because of the way I feel
But for the reason that I let you entice me with that sex appeal
And blinded by shallowness I didn't realize the true person you were at hand
And in the end you turned out to be a typical no good man

But I'm not going to sit around and indulge in negativity
I'm going to relax, calm down and seek serenity
Because in the end I know you obviously don't deserve a woman like me
The closest we will ever be will be the relationship we have in your dreams

Loops

Never thought you would try to get over on me
But now that money is involved we'll see
I put you on a pedestal which was the wrong thing to do
Gave me the opportunity to expect different shit from you

But than again now I'm believing that all dudes are the same
The only thing different about you is your mother fucking name
You tell me your different and in the future you will show me what is true
But that's not necessary I realize you a typical lame ass dude

Give you dough to show you that I don't mind being there for you at all times
And even then I get shitted on, and you constantly tell your lies
I'm still waiting for what you owe me since 4 days ago
If you don't have it that all you had to say fa sho

But instead you decide to front on me like I'm one of your duck ass birds
To think that you'd think to compare me to any of those hoes is truly absurd
Later down the line you'll realize that you really fucked up
I was a down chick that would have stuck by you no matter what

Pride

You are becoming very important to me very fast
I"m trying to look forward to the future and say goodbye to my past
I can honestly say that you are of no comparison to any one else I've been with before
Which makes me eager and curious as to what the future holds

So now I wonder what it is that has me feeling this type of way
Why the urge to play games has already faded away?
Why in my mind I want you in so many ways that I can't explain?
And why you constantly stay on my mind each and every day?

It's not a too good to be true situation because over and over I don't know what to do
When you make me angry and cause me to have a bad attitude
But than its frustrating that when you look at me all the anger disappears I forget
And for strange reason I start believing that you arrived for me, as if this was heavenly sent

But at the same time I have to put up my wall and remain cool at all times
It's no way I can be with a man that constantly only has his pride on his mind
That pride shit really gets in the way, I guess furthermore I will hold on for the ride
Unable to give to you my entire self instead I'll wait till you try