I'm not shy but I really don't want to share.
I don't find any excitement in a chick pulling my hair.
I look forward to being hit by behind by a manly thrusting.
Not curious to differentiate between a male or female tonguing.
I myself feel like I'm so much of a fulfillment I don't need anyone to go behind me to finish my work.
When I put it on my man, I conquer what's mine, he has no reason to wander under any new woman's skirt.
When he says my name he says it loud and clear, pronouncing each and every syllable down to the s.
I know I do a good job because when I'm done, he falls a sleep in my wetness.
And the next morning when I should be in the kitchen cooking eggs and bacon.
My man is in the kitchen thinking of the 3 meals he will prepare to thank me.
I get a gold star for effort and a gold metal for expertise.
How does it feel to wake up every morning by a man down on his knees?
I could never imagine a woman taking his place.
I could never imagine waking up to a woman's face.
I like a manly man with manly arms, holding me all night in a manly way.
I will never share a man with any woman, except maybe one time, before my wedding day.
August 27, 2008
Relax
When you slide it in my temperature hits at least 100 degrees.
Is it because I still love or have I been anticipating this for too long in my dreams?
Your chocolate swirl deep in my peppermint patty.
The thick sweet icing oozing out of my laughy-taffy.
Damn, I've been waiting, it's been so long but it feels so fucking good.
My legs are spread, my walls are open stretching to swallow your wood.
Home sweet home, as always I put that smile on Daddy's face.
Like habit my tongue no longer needs directions to find your special place.
Bodies twined into one, my legs made into pretzels and semi-circles.
Trying new positions, makes me horny, also wearing lingerie especially purple.
Talking dirty also makes me freaky, I know I'm a nymph at heart.
That's why I feel like I'm going through withdrawal when I keep your dick and my pussy apart.
No I'm no longer your bust it baby, this is completely on my terms.
In fact you can shut the fuck up while we fucking,
I know longer want to hear your words.
You telling me you still love me, why even waste your fucking time.
Close your eyes and squeeze me, let the milky-ness below my waste relax your mind.
Is it because I still love or have I been anticipating this for too long in my dreams?
Your chocolate swirl deep in my peppermint patty.
The thick sweet icing oozing out of my laughy-taffy.
Damn, I've been waiting, it's been so long but it feels so fucking good.
My legs are spread, my walls are open stretching to swallow your wood.
Home sweet home, as always I put that smile on Daddy's face.
Like habit my tongue no longer needs directions to find your special place.
Bodies twined into one, my legs made into pretzels and semi-circles.
Trying new positions, makes me horny, also wearing lingerie especially purple.
Talking dirty also makes me freaky, I know I'm a nymph at heart.
That's why I feel like I'm going through withdrawal when I keep your dick and my pussy apart.
No I'm no longer your bust it baby, this is completely on my terms.
In fact you can shut the fuck up while we fucking,
I know longer want to hear your words.
You telling me you still love me, why even waste your fucking time.
Close your eyes and squeeze me, let the milky-ness below my waste relax your mind.
Truth
You are the new first lady of his kingdom, tat of his name displayed on your back.
You are one of many with the identical permanent label above your crack.
So I'm guessing you did this to prove to him that you want to be the leading lady of his life.
In some stupid twisted way you display, he should choose you to be his wife.
Well what you tell me is true, I am the woman of his past.
But everyone knows, every baby daddy when it comes to his baby mama, thinks he can get a piece of ass.
So when you spend so much time trying to figure out what's going on, and whether love still exists.
Know that every time you piss him off, I am she he will always miss.
Realize that I'm not with him by choice, and if I wanted him he would be mine.
Use your brain ma, you yourself knows he constantly lies.
I remember when I was in your shoes, when I used to create excuses for the things that he do.
How I tried to convince myself to follow my heart, and ignore my brain, I know how it feels to be you.
I will always be the mother of his first and only child, so always remember that.
To be real, I'm not going anywhere, I'm a permanent fixture for a matter of fact.
Physically he is in my memory, but the emotions have been gone for a long time.
You can try to create as much drama as you can,
but MY baby daddy is all mine.
You are one of many with the identical permanent label above your crack.
So I'm guessing you did this to prove to him that you want to be the leading lady of his life.
In some stupid twisted way you display, he should choose you to be his wife.
Well what you tell me is true, I am the woman of his past.
But everyone knows, every baby daddy when it comes to his baby mama, thinks he can get a piece of ass.
So when you spend so much time trying to figure out what's going on, and whether love still exists.
Know that every time you piss him off, I am she he will always miss.
Realize that I'm not with him by choice, and if I wanted him he would be mine.
Use your brain ma, you yourself knows he constantly lies.
I remember when I was in your shoes, when I used to create excuses for the things that he do.
How I tried to convince myself to follow my heart, and ignore my brain, I know how it feels to be you.
I will always be the mother of his first and only child, so always remember that.
To be real, I'm not going anywhere, I'm a permanent fixture for a matter of fact.
Physically he is in my memory, but the emotions have been gone for a long time.
You can try to create as much drama as you can,
but MY baby daddy is all mine.
August 25, 2008
O
My legs high, a 90 degree angle
With my Back arched, I can grab my ankles
The pounding of your balls on the crack of my ass
While our body's smash, I can hear the splash
Slippery and tight, I work hard in overtime
Holding my lips tight, I love this grind
Fast and slow keeping our bodies in rotation
Tongue in ear, Concentration
Lay back flat, I'll slide on top
Lick you down to your tootsie roll pop
Turnover slowly, crack in face
Hold me tight while my body shake
Orgasms ripple through my body
My clit tender, I kiss you softly
Loving the attention you harden for more
Lick my bell, I'll open the door
With my Back arched, I can grab my ankles
The pounding of your balls on the crack of my ass
While our body's smash, I can hear the splash
Slippery and tight, I work hard in overtime
Holding my lips tight, I love this grind
Fast and slow keeping our bodies in rotation
Tongue in ear, Concentration
Lay back flat, I'll slide on top
Lick you down to your tootsie roll pop
Turnover slowly, crack in face
Hold me tight while my body shake
Orgasms ripple through my body
My clit tender, I kiss you softly
Loving the attention you harden for more
Lick my bell, I'll open the door
August 24, 2008
Nasty Nice
Love is supposed to be so beautiful yet in the end I end up in pain
My heart knows why I'm in love but my brain is done playing games
I can put the words on paper exactly what goes through my head
All I know is that love really hurts, count the tears I've already shed
So the decision I make to move on is concrete, but the notion of being strong lingers
All I can think about is how good it felt to be touched by his big masculine fingers
The thin line between love and hate, the thin desire to still want him around
Even though I know when I take him serious, I'm standing on shaky grounds
To leave him alone, with no turning back its easier said than done
I already know just calling his phone gives him the satisfaction that he won
To give that idiot any form of condolences is the last thing that I want to do
All the pain that he's caused, all the bullshit he's put me through
I can't elaborate on what the future holds, but my wall is stacked to the rim
These bricks are securely placed preventing me from committing new sins
I myself am aware that although I want to physically harm him, karma will come his way
And though I want to hurt him tomorrow, the revenge may come today
My heart knows why I'm in love but my brain is done playing games
I can put the words on paper exactly what goes through my head
All I know is that love really hurts, count the tears I've already shed
So the decision I make to move on is concrete, but the notion of being strong lingers
All I can think about is how good it felt to be touched by his big masculine fingers
The thin line between love and hate, the thin desire to still want him around
Even though I know when I take him serious, I'm standing on shaky grounds
To leave him alone, with no turning back its easier said than done
I already know just calling his phone gives him the satisfaction that he won
To give that idiot any form of condolences is the last thing that I want to do
All the pain that he's caused, all the bullshit he's put me through
I can't elaborate on what the future holds, but my wall is stacked to the rim
These bricks are securely placed preventing me from committing new sins
I myself am aware that although I want to physically harm him, karma will come his way
And though I want to hurt him tomorrow, the revenge may come today
August 20, 2008
Ass
Call me stingy but I'm reserving my pussy moving forward.
I know it won't be easy, I'll be putting myself through torture.
I love sex to death, but no longer will I base a friendship on how many times you make me cum.
Nor will I spend so much time thinking about the next time you gone give me some.
If I'm woman enough to solo take care of the lives of me and my son.
Than I should be strong enough of a woman to make it through the spell of a dry run.
Choosing to eliminate the burden of a hard dick.
Only now will I enjoy the satisfaction of a good lick.
It's hard to decipher a man's mentality from the actions that are shown.
But pussy is on a man's mind whether he's 22 or 40 years old.
I'm just so damn tired of hearing the same old bullshit.
We both adults be real is it that you just want to hit.
Why play games? Be honest. Sex is only an action verb, even though it sounds so sweet.
But moving forward I'll hide my sweet tooth, I'm now allergic to that treat.
No more booty calls. I will enjoy a full night of rest.
So if all you want is some ass, you can move on and settle for less.
I know it won't be easy, I'll be putting myself through torture.
I love sex to death, but no longer will I base a friendship on how many times you make me cum.
Nor will I spend so much time thinking about the next time you gone give me some.
If I'm woman enough to solo take care of the lives of me and my son.
Than I should be strong enough of a woman to make it through the spell of a dry run.
Choosing to eliminate the burden of a hard dick.
Only now will I enjoy the satisfaction of a good lick.
It's hard to decipher a man's mentality from the actions that are shown.
But pussy is on a man's mind whether he's 22 or 40 years old.
I'm just so damn tired of hearing the same old bullshit.
We both adults be real is it that you just want to hit.
Why play games? Be honest. Sex is only an action verb, even though it sounds so sweet.
But moving forward I'll hide my sweet tooth, I'm now allergic to that treat.
No more booty calls. I will enjoy a full night of rest.
So if all you want is some ass, you can move on and settle for less.
August 18, 2008
Swap
"Mommy I already did one more week?" My baby is ready to come home.
It's hard for him to understand because he's only 3 years old.
Mommy and Daddy aren't together, so instead of one house you have two.
But from the voice of my child I hear "Mommy I want to be with you."
In takes everything in me not to drop everything I'm doing, drive all the way to Jersey to pick up my baby.
I know I can't do that, because if I do, shit between me and the baby daddy will definitely get crazy.
Those days are over, I try to keep it chill even though I can't go a whole week with out wanting to slap his ass for real.
So until the time is right, I call continuously to make sure he's alright, even in his voice I can tell how he feels.
I tell him Mommy misses you I love you so much. He tells me that he misses me too.
It hurts so much in the pit of my gut for him to say Mommy I want to be with you.
It's unfair at age 3 he has to be passed back and forth between NJ and V-A.
Everyone tells me that he'll adjust soon, but I don't think he'll ever see that day.
Eventually he'll be older and to him I know through his eyes this is unfair.
I wish that he didn't have to experience the separation, but in reality it'll always be there.
So all I can do is wait till my week finally arrives.
Where I can hold my baby again and no longer listen to his cries.
It's hard for him to understand because he's only 3 years old.
Mommy and Daddy aren't together, so instead of one house you have two.
But from the voice of my child I hear "Mommy I want to be with you."
In takes everything in me not to drop everything I'm doing, drive all the way to Jersey to pick up my baby.
I know I can't do that, because if I do, shit between me and the baby daddy will definitely get crazy.
Those days are over, I try to keep it chill even though I can't go a whole week with out wanting to slap his ass for real.
So until the time is right, I call continuously to make sure he's alright, even in his voice I can tell how he feels.
I tell him Mommy misses you I love you so much. He tells me that he misses me too.
It hurts so much in the pit of my gut for him to say Mommy I want to be with you.
It's unfair at age 3 he has to be passed back and forth between NJ and V-A.
Everyone tells me that he'll adjust soon, but I don't think he'll ever see that day.
Eventually he'll be older and to him I know through his eyes this is unfair.
I wish that he didn't have to experience the separation, but in reality it'll always be there.
So all I can do is wait till my week finally arrives.
Where I can hold my baby again and no longer listen to his cries.
Eventually
Three and a half years ago I gave birth to the one precious being that means the world to me.
Everything I do, everything I work hard for, its for him, and I know one day he'll see.
When things get hard I remind myself to work even harder and in the end I'll appreciate what I've worked so hard for.
But still even with this thought it mind, its still hurts to work hard and only slowly do I see a little bit more.
So I fall back, exhale and think about everything that I need to do.
Think about the reasons that I make the decisions that I do, and why in my head I have so much to prove.
Although the livelihood of my little one has been the single priority of my life since he's been born
And although I try so hard I know deep down in my heart I'm ungrateful, because I strive for so much more.
I mean I'm grateful that he's here and he's made the mark that he has on my heart.
But there are so many nights I cry feeling like my brain has been torn apart.
Thinking about paying my bills, taking care of my seed solo, $600 a month for private school care.
While I'm out here taking care of myself, got a real job not depending on anyone nor the government, but because I'm not a college graduate you stare.
She messed up her life, made a big mistake she had so much to look forward to.
I've heard this in my ears for the last 3 in a half years and I realized that I still have so much to do.
Yeah it might be harder, but my son has made me even stronger, so every doubt that I've ever had in my mind.
Goes away immediately because I know regardless of what I've been told repeatedly, everything that I said I was going to do will eventually be done in time.
Everything I do, everything I work hard for, its for him, and I know one day he'll see.
When things get hard I remind myself to work even harder and in the end I'll appreciate what I've worked so hard for.
But still even with this thought it mind, its still hurts to work hard and only slowly do I see a little bit more.
So I fall back, exhale and think about everything that I need to do.
Think about the reasons that I make the decisions that I do, and why in my head I have so much to prove.
Although the livelihood of my little one has been the single priority of my life since he's been born
And although I try so hard I know deep down in my heart I'm ungrateful, because I strive for so much more.
I mean I'm grateful that he's here and he's made the mark that he has on my heart.
But there are so many nights I cry feeling like my brain has been torn apart.
Thinking about paying my bills, taking care of my seed solo, $600 a month for private school care.
While I'm out here taking care of myself, got a real job not depending on anyone nor the government, but because I'm not a college graduate you stare.
She messed up her life, made a big mistake she had so much to look forward to.
I've heard this in my ears for the last 3 in a half years and I realized that I still have so much to do.
Yeah it might be harder, but my son has made me even stronger, so every doubt that I've ever had in my mind.
Goes away immediately because I know regardless of what I've been told repeatedly, everything that I said I was going to do will eventually be done in time.
August 12, 2008
Drip
My tears keep falling...my heart hurts, I can't even feel my head
We had a conversation about our deaths, but this early is not what you said
In a casket, coogi'd down complete with a fitted and white tee
My nigga you supposed to be here but you already left me
We had plans for the future all the shit you planned to do
How am I supposed to continue to do all that shit without you
And yo I told you stop drinking that shit wasn't good for your body
But being so damn stubborn you wouldn't listen to anybody
We all got to die someway is what you said to me
But I never thought it would be you dying all of suddenly
Well thank you so much for being a part of my life the time that you were here
And even though you've passed away in my heart I will keep you near
The meanest nigga I've ever known, the most go hard nigga I ever knew
I ain't ever tell you but you was my friend, my nigga, and I really do love you
And if and when you needed me I would have held you down in everyway
And that's why I've been hurting all fucking day
We had a conversation about our deaths, but this early is not what you said
In a casket, coogi'd down complete with a fitted and white tee
My nigga you supposed to be here but you already left me
We had plans for the future all the shit you planned to do
How am I supposed to continue to do all that shit without you
And yo I told you stop drinking that shit wasn't good for your body
But being so damn stubborn you wouldn't listen to anybody
We all got to die someway is what you said to me
But I never thought it would be you dying all of suddenly
Well thank you so much for being a part of my life the time that you were here
And even though you've passed away in my heart I will keep you near
The meanest nigga I've ever known, the most go hard nigga I ever knew
I ain't ever tell you but you was my friend, my nigga, and I really do love you
And if and when you needed me I would have held you down in everyway
And that's why I've been hurting all fucking day
R.I.P D00g
I always said you were the meanest man that I ever met today
What I would do to turn back the hands of time for you to pick up the phone this day
I know you were mad and I'm sorry for everything that I did
Didn't return your call that day and now your life as come to an end
All I can think about is that you are no longer on this Earth
27 years old, young couldn't even experience your first-born's birth
Wake up early just to talk, my keep me up voice on my way home
But now I no longer have you and right now I feel so alone
I can't believe you're gone and at this moment I don't know want to do
Didn't even get the opportunity to express my love to you
So physically you not here, but in my heart you will be forever
And I know you can still be my ear to talk to me about whatever
I take so much for granted and I realize this at this very moment
I've learned my lesson believe me starting now I will show it
Everything happens for a reason and right now even though I feel like shit
I know you are ok in heaven but I feel like an ungrateful bitch
What I would do to turn back the hands of time for you to pick up the phone this day
I know you were mad and I'm sorry for everything that I did
Didn't return your call that day and now your life as come to an end
All I can think about is that you are no longer on this Earth
27 years old, young couldn't even experience your first-born's birth
Wake up early just to talk, my keep me up voice on my way home
But now I no longer have you and right now I feel so alone
I can't believe you're gone and at this moment I don't know want to do
Didn't even get the opportunity to express my love to you
So physically you not here, but in my heart you will be forever
And I know you can still be my ear to talk to me about whatever
I take so much for granted and I realize this at this very moment
I've learned my lesson believe me starting now I will show it
Everything happens for a reason and right now even though I feel like shit
I know you are ok in heaven but I feel like an ungrateful bitch
August 04, 2008
Hoe
A damn shame a grown ass man yet u truly aint shit
And now all your hoes know that you was only in it to hit
So now the hard part is over and now its your turn to pay
Eventually you will realize what I did, you might not understand today
But I'm not over how disgusting and triffling you turned out to be
How can you have sex with your cousin, yo thats really nasty
I'm parading you around like you the shit but in reality you were only a dog
And you in my face honestly feeling like you didn't do anything wrong
Are you sick? Do you have an illness tell me whats the case.
How do you look me in my eyes and lie to face?
It's crazy but you do it..and you did it for months.
I don't believe you did it only because I messed up.
A hicky does not compare to what it is that you did.
But believe me when all of this is over I am going to win.
Your friends are right you are messing with a different type of breed.
Now you will see the viscious bitch that I can be.
And now all your hoes know that you was only in it to hit
So now the hard part is over and now its your turn to pay
Eventually you will realize what I did, you might not understand today
But I'm not over how disgusting and triffling you turned out to be
How can you have sex with your cousin, yo thats really nasty
I'm parading you around like you the shit but in reality you were only a dog
And you in my face honestly feeling like you didn't do anything wrong
Are you sick? Do you have an illness tell me whats the case.
How do you look me in my eyes and lie to face?
It's crazy but you do it..and you did it for months.
I don't believe you did it only because I messed up.
A hicky does not compare to what it is that you did.
But believe me when all of this is over I am going to win.
Your friends are right you are messing with a different type of breed.
Now you will see the viscious bitch that I can be.
Ache
She's not your girl but that's your boo.
You changed your number and gave it to your crew.
I'm busting my ass trying to figure out what's going on.
Not knowing if you're locked up, my heart's already torn.
I really shouldn't care if you was serving some time.
But when I say that aloud, I know I'm lying.
Like I've told you we've had a bumpy ride.
I can remember several nights I went to bed and cried.
I thought you were kind of crazy because of the things you used to do.
Not knowing that men do things when they are in love with you.
I know you care about me and you check on me through other people.
What you do not know is the love I had for you has gotten even deeper.
I can't express to you how deeply I truly feel.
In some ways I want to work it out but I already know the deal.
To tell you that you will never have me all to yourself was true.
But its only because of the constant heartache that I still have for you.
You changed your number and gave it to your crew.
I'm busting my ass trying to figure out what's going on.
Not knowing if you're locked up, my heart's already torn.
I really shouldn't care if you was serving some time.
But when I say that aloud, I know I'm lying.
Like I've told you we've had a bumpy ride.
I can remember several nights I went to bed and cried.
I thought you were kind of crazy because of the things you used to do.
Not knowing that men do things when they are in love with you.
I know you care about me and you check on me through other people.
What you do not know is the love I had for you has gotten even deeper.
I can't express to you how deeply I truly feel.
In some ways I want to work it out but I already know the deal.
To tell you that you will never have me all to yourself was true.
But its only because of the constant heartache that I still have for you.
Bx
It's crazy because it's been a minute since I'd last seen your face
But even now I can remember everything even your scent and the way you taste
I hate to say it but over time I realize what you said was true
That even after our relationship there is new bullshit I must go through
In all honesty I can't even describe how much misery and pain you brought into my life
But even after all you've done I still think how things would have been as your wife
We talked about it a lot and I wanted so badly to officially be yours
But it was so hard for me to except that you had a 4 year old, 3 and 2 year old and a baby 2 months old
You lied to me at the beginning and I still stuck by you everyday
And even though I knew It was crazy I loved you in every type of way
The love we share I know is one of a kind
You have admitted to be my soul mate, and its stuck in my mind
In reality we will probaly never be together ever again
But I feel good knowing that the love you have for me will never end
You told me that you get week in my presence and I feel the same exact way
Which is why since I've seen you I've thought about you every fucking day.
But even now I can remember everything even your scent and the way you taste
I hate to say it but over time I realize what you said was true
That even after our relationship there is new bullshit I must go through
In all honesty I can't even describe how much misery and pain you brought into my life
But even after all you've done I still think how things would have been as your wife
We talked about it a lot and I wanted so badly to officially be yours
But it was so hard for me to except that you had a 4 year old, 3 and 2 year old and a baby 2 months old
You lied to me at the beginning and I still stuck by you everyday
And even though I knew It was crazy I loved you in every type of way
The love we share I know is one of a kind
You have admitted to be my soul mate, and its stuck in my mind
In reality we will probaly never be together ever again
But I feel good knowing that the love you have for me will never end
You told me that you get week in my presence and I feel the same exact way
Which is why since I've seen you I've thought about you every fucking day.
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